Pregnancy Taboo

I was at a friend's wedding the other day.

Met the most gorgeous girl, she's with twins at 17weeks now.

So we got talking.

Found out we have similar experiences with our first pregnancies, only she has double of what I had.

We both craved beer and watermelon. We both had no idea what to expect. And we both were the first in our group of friends to get pregnant. And we both felt deceived of what we had known about pregnancy up to the time we experienced it ourselves.

Most of all, we both felt lonely.

She said that as if it was like taboo and no one seems to share about their sufferings during pregnancy. I totally agree. It kinda makes you feel like a bad mother to be.

Some people don't connect with the baby in them. There's no obvious love, it's a constant suffering especially when they have no energy and are throwing up and can't go out anywhere.

I didn't fall in love with my baby at the first instant. But I love him to bits now. When he first came out the subconscious couldn't deliver, and it wasn't all rosy and pretty like what is described by most people you ask.

I suffered immensely during the pregnancy, and thought to myself "I'll never do this again," But now I think otherwise.

Some say you gotta be thankful for being able to be pregnant and just swallow the negative thoughts. But I think every woman is different, every pregnancy is different. You can't be like everyone else sometimes.

It's ok to be you, and to feel how you feel. That's a start. Accepting your feelings, acknowledge you own them and take it slowly from there.

God bless all the mothers.